A change is something we often look for. Its something we often strive for. Finding it to be something we have always had in us but was afraid of. Change!
Life is what we create, but we have to have a plan
The Sadness
The spinning and moving around
I simply see the most beautiful Woman in the World.
All is well as things are going just as they should. I smiled as I told myself, life is good as I skipped down that road. I smiled as I waved at Mrs Jenkins sitting on her porch as she always did; I even stopped and pet old Jessie as he ran to me from her side. Yea, things are going just as they should. I smiled as I told myself, life is good as I skipped down that road. That’s when I stopped and thought ,I was supposed to be doing something new? I thought I was going some place I had never been before? I thought I was changing and heading into a new direction? How did I end up here, on this old familiar road again? Yea I did it, I did it to myself. One thing leads to another. I tricked me, how quickly we end up doing the same old thing, again.
I smiled as I waved at Mrs Jenkins sitting on her porch, I even stopped and pet old Jessie as he ran to me from her side but today,I stopped at that intersection and thought, I always go left, left feels normal,left feels good but today we go right. Today we remember to take a chance and try something new. Today we are conscious of what we want to do as well, as what it takes to do it. Today we change, not allot, not all at once but today we do things a little different than we did before. Today I go right and I’ll see what comes next. Today I still smile as I tell myself, life is good as I skip down that road. Yea and Jessie will be just fine without me, with all that slobbering and stuff.
I said, Hello Mr Cloudmen, he said lets just get this over with. I asked is everything OK? He said it’s Marry, she finally caught me. I said Mr Cloudmen you are welcome to talk about it, I’m almost done with your paper work. He said I don’t need to talk but this is what happened. Marry came home and found me with a prostitute. I couldn’t take not doing the things I like, like the so and so and so and so. So I had to do it, I found one of those women, brought her home and wanted to do all things I like, like the so and so and so and so. I said Mr Cloudmen why didn’t you just ask Mar. Stop! You don’t ask Your Girl to do that kind of stuff, you don’t talk like that to Your Woman he said, not about things like the so and so and so and so. I said but Mr Cloudmen you have to Communi. Stop! He said, you don’t talk about that, not with a woman like Marry, not the so and so and so and so. Here is my signature and I have to go. Thank you Mr Cloudmen.
As I walked into my place I thought about Mr Cloudmen and wondered why men think like that. As I see her standing in the doorway her body glowing with a radiant glow, she hugged me with a hug that said nothing but Love. I said Baby, we have to communicate, we have to be able to always talk. She said yes, I want to always be able to talk. I said we have to be able to share what’s on our minds. She said yes,I love sharing and I want you to know everything thats on my mind. I said you are the most beautiful thing in the world to me, and I’ll do what I can to please and take care of you. She held me tightly and whispered in my ear, Jake can I do the so and so and so and so to you. I smiled and said Marry your a Nasty Girl! She said know one ever allowed Me to be Me. Know one ever talked to Me about Me. Know one ever communicated with Me, like you. She said I want to be Me and I want to be me with you. I smiled and said Marry your a Nasty Girl! She said all you have to do is ask,Now thats enough talking, lets communicate and do some so and so and so and so. I smiled and whispered Marry your a Nasty Girl!
We find that we’ll do anything for money. But then we find that money is the illusion; its not the money that we want, Its the illusion. The illusion of being or the illusion of being seen or known as something.
Once we understand who We are, we need no money. Once we understand what We truly want, there is no illusion. We become free. No wants, No money, just free.
But today we’ll do anything for money, we’ll do anything for the illusion. But what happens when we understand. Just think of what happens when We understand. We all become Free. We all become Free.
And no one wants that. Believe me, if you know what I know. No one wants That.
No One!
I passed my old boss in the market and he stopped me; asking why didn’t I just quit, he heard they had just fired me? I explained that I enjoyed working there, and I really liked the people that I had worked with. I simply began to understand the term debt. I found that the real reason I had to work was to buy all the new things that I thought I needed. I had to buy the latest smart phone that I saw on TV as I had to buy the new hybrid that looked so cool on the commercials. I had to work because I had to have all the stuff that everyone else was getting. I had to be a part of it and when you are it makes you feel good, I thought.
I began to understand the term debt. I found out Sir that when I got rid of all my stuff, turned the TV off, read a good book and relaxed; I didn’t have to lie to myself any longer. I was only working because I had to, pay for all the stuff. So now, my rent is paid for the month as my bills are all paid off and life is different these days. I have the time to think and plan my life now. He asked again, that if I had it all figured it out why didn’t I just quit? I have to tell you Sir the un-employment checks are great.
